Since I wrote my last post on this here "excommunicated blog", a lot of things have changed. I've rekindled some relationships with family members that had been broken for over 15 years. This is and was a very sad thing. I'm very happy about getting back in touch with my loved ones. No matter how angry I was, I missed them. I love those family members.

Since I've started talking to my family again, I've been shown that a lot of my views of the meeting are tainted. I'm not surprised at all. I was very bitter when I broke away and I tended to look at things as harsh as they could possibly be. I've also found that a lot of the "rules" I fought so hard against, have been softened over the years. The "brethren" are not the freaks I made them out to be. Sure there are still difficult personalities and clashes with rebellious teenagers like I was... but overall I feel bad for being so judgemental of the meeting.

I don't think I'll ever be part of it like I once was, but I do hold a lot of their truths dear to me. I do think it is the right place to be for many. I hope that I can take my daughter to sunday school there and she can learn the stories and songs that I learned when I was little. So I guess what I'm coming here to say is: it's not all bad. In fact, there is a lot of good (more than I can find anywhere else!) and I hope my views have not tainted anyone against "the meeting".

This is my story, not any one else's.